Schizophrenic Inmate on Death Row

Well I just had yet another dying dream. I was one of many female death row inmates experiencing my last few hours of life, each of us being lined up in the doorway of our own little wooden cell in a big barn-like building. We weren't already in this building so they brought each of us into our cells one by one. I was one of the first. I was facing out my doorway toward the open room and to my left my cell neighbor was a frizzy-haired blonde. They brought her in pretty soon after me. She was a happily evil murderer. We were getting along pretty well. I guess I was pretty evil too. My neighbor to the right was freaking crazy. I bet she killed some people too. They chained our hands together and tied the chains above our door so our arms were straight above our heads.

Here's why I think I was schizo (I may have just turned into my super crazy neighbor to the right for a second though)- I heard these two small people talking to me. They were above my head telling me they were trying to take the chains off but the bowl was really heavy (the chains were attached to a big metal bowl-like thing). The little people talking to me were like ghost children, but I knew they were there and they were really talking to me. uhhhh... WEIRD.

Anyway, so as the rest of the cells were being filled I was chatting it up with my neighbors, mostly the evil frizz-head. When they finished filling the cells I barely noticed since I was talking but the person in charge stood toward the corner of the room with a couple of rifles.

We were now facing the insides of our cells and were down on our knees. I don't remember what I was saying but as I was talking I heard evil frizz-head get shot first. I was mid-sentence when I was shot in the back of the head. My head got really heavy and everything went black as I fell forward. My face landed on my arms (which I now realize is weird since they were chained to the wall above my head earlier) and I tried to open my eyes but I couldn't and I started to feel a little panicked. I knew I was dead or very close to it.

THE scariest most mind blowing dream i have ever EVER had. PERIOD.

HOLY FREAKING CRAP. I JUST woke up from the most insane horribly realistic dream ever. I hope no one else ever dreams anything like this. Seriously.

This dream was pretty long with other smaller dreams, if you will, filling in the whole story, which made it feel even more just like real life. Holy crap I am practically shaking and almost feel like crying.

I can't remember where everything started, but at some point something strange happened in the sky that pretty much everyone around noticed. I can't remember what that event was exactly, something like the whole sky was gradually getting a little darker from one end clear over to the other side. I said something like, "oh it must be aliens haha" then nothing happened and we all kind of forgot about it.

A couple days later - after I had experienced like 2 other stories/dreams - everyone was gathering for some huge fireworks. My family was at the top of some high bleachers that were just metal benches lined up on a hill but were were all a little spaced out. We were all sitting on the ends of our rows, but my parents and my brother were to my right and a row up with an isle between us and my sister was sitting behind me. A couple girls came and sat next to me. Either one of them or my sister pointed out this weird shooting star streaking across the sky. It would shoot and sparkle for about a second, then you wouldn't see it for about a half a second, then you would for another second and it kept going like that skipping along the sky and it lasted for at least 10 seconds. Everyone was noticing it and my sister sent a text to her friend, Maja, about it because she always misses shooting stars (or I least during the dream I thought that she does). We also saw a couple other normal-looking shooting stars at the same time this one was streaking across the sky.

So very soon after the star is gone the sky starts to look slightly funky again, its gradually looking lighter and there is this totally strange random object in the sky. It was probably about the size a blimp would look but it was more distant (being more distant it would have to actually be WAAAYYY bigger than a blimp) and less clearly seen. it almost looked like a tail of some sea creature or something. It was small and opaque-ish white. This object is slowwwly moving across the middle of the sky. As it comes close to being directly overhead I started worrying a little. I said something again about it being aliens but was only half joking this time. It slowed down as it came directly above us and lowered down vertically and thats when I started to feel like it really was some insanely huge alien spaceship or alien world that had come over/into ours. It wasn't like any alien movie I've ever seen. There was no flying saucer. It was like they were able to move their whole world, without any sort of vehicle, into our atmosphere without us even seeing them. But I sensed them.

The object I could tell was like the portal into their world or whatever. As it lowered down to about the height in the sky of where an airplane would fly, it looked like it was pulsating. It was sucking. But not everything went up. No buildings or cars or other objects. Only people. It was like we were all being "beamed up" at pretty much the same time. We'd get sucked up at slightly different intervals- one person would slowly start going up, then a second later someone else would. My parents were a little above me and they were spaced from each other a little too.

When I started getting sucked up it was the most mind blowing feeling ever. I had no control over it. I didnt even feel any fear of the height, only of what in the world was going to happen to us once we got to the portal. Were we being eaten? Slowly people started disappearing/dissolving (?) I could see my mom start to dissolve and was sad but I knew that soon it would be me too so if she was going somewhere I would be there soon too. If she was dying I would very soon too. I saw my little brother's arm below me. Maybe the rest of him had already dissolved. I was able to grab it and hold on to it, even though I couldn't really feel it. It was more like a hologram. But I just thought to myself, I love my family so much, how can this be happening to us? I remember praying and asking that we would all somehow be safe wherever we were going.

Just the feeling of how very very real this was, how completely strange this experienced was made this dream the most incredibly realistic and therefore scariest dream ever. I woke up and was so surprised that I was here. I could barely believe that it was only a dream, that I was here and that whole thing never actually happened. But here I was laying in my bed and outside it was dark, otherwise I might not believe it was only a dream.

The Recurring Marriage Nightmare

A couple nights ago i had my recurring marriage nightmare. Its always a different totally random person I know that I'm about to marry. This time it was a boy from one of my old wards. I had been planning this wedding for a while. It felt so real. It was the day of my wedding and I realized exactly what was about to happen. I was about to commit to spend not only the rest of my life with this one person, but ETERNITY. Apparently I hadn't even considered the "for the rest of my life" part, because when i thought about that i kinda freaked out. when the "eternity" part hit my brain, oh boy was i worried. I didn't even like this person in a boy-girl sorta liking way. i was really concerned because i had spent all this time planning my wedding and now how could i just say "sorry charlie [not his name haha] i don't think so?" but i couldnt just marry someone. its kind of a big deal! sheesh it was stressful.

Anyhow, i thought to myself, "this is just like my horrible marriage nightmares coming true!" That must have made me realize i was dreaming because thats where the dream ended. THANK HEAVENS.

Oh. I just realized I never have actually had to deal with telling everyone that the wedding was off. Maybe my brain cant handle that. I do worry about having to tell everyone but the dream either ends or the story shifts before I have to deal with that. Hmmm looks like I've lucked out.

The broken-hearted creepo.

So a few nights ago I had another traysure of a dream. There was a man who was in love with me but i was NOT so much in love with him. woof. ps this was a real person i know. i am also definitely not in love with this person in real life.

He worked at this old really tall dimly lit and very grayish school building and for some reason I was in this building. He was hunting me down with a baseball bat but I was pretty tricky and eluded him quite well, which pissed him off more.

I guess he knew that I'm part Swedish and so everything in the building that reminded him of something Swedish he destroyed with his little bat. Apparently all the bathroom lights made him think of his Swedish ancestors. Those got attacked a lot.

I don't think he ever caught up with me and I'm pretty sure the dream just sorta ended, but I may have just forgot what happened. It's been a few days.

oh actually i think he killed some people, and then like the next day all the kids were talking about this horrible tragedy that happened at their school.

Murdered Again?

Well last night was another interesting one. I pretty much died again. Someone (a small group actually, like the mob) was chasing me behind the neighborhood i used to live in when i was little. It was like a golden-wheat-colored grass field with an abandoned warehouse.

when they caught up to me they shot me. multiple times. I think the bullets were tranquilizing bullets because each shot put me under a little more each time. I guess they wanted it to look like i was dead when my friend found me. There was also a thick IV tube attached to my arm and I saw my blood draining into it. I think thats how they could tell how unconscious I was. When it filled to the end with my blood i drifted away. I think it sorta killed me but i could be brought back.

I wonder why I die all the time in my dreams. I was just talking about my death dreams a couple days ago. and i was bragging how i can fly in my dreams. I'm pretty sure at some point last night in a dream i tried to fly away and it wasn't working. That's what I get for bragging about my sweet flying abilities I guess.

Oh also in another dream last night I was at my grandma's house and Will Smith came over. He was some hott stuff. haha.

Ok so last night I had a few dreams that I know of. I remember the last 2. The first of those 2, starting from where I can remember, began with me riding in a train or something with two of the doctors I work for, Dr. B and Dr. P. haha. I went to my house and these drug lords were checkin me out for possible wife-age/concubine-age. I was a little freaked out to say the least. I remember contemplating which behavior would deter them from me. I believe I decided on wigging out.

The next dream took place in a cafeteria/movie theater. My friend, Angie, was trying her hand at this movie-candy slot machine. It cost $25 to play. She said, "I really want to play, but I can't. I just don't have money to be spending." So this random guy walks up and puts 25 bucks in the machine. She pulls the lever and BAM! One bag of candy! (I think it was a little bag of Nibs) Wahoo. Later I looked in the drawer where the candy collected and there were actually like 10 bags of different things- chips, m&m's/skittles and these tiny white Granny B cookies I always get on my vending machine vacas with Whitney. Anyway, Angie told me I could take a couple so I did (and of course one of my choices was the little white cookies). The movie started and this is the first time I can think of that I remember there being music in my dream. The music started and I didn't actually see what was on the screen but it was an old-ish black and white movie (I don't know how I knew but I did). So Danny P is also there and some other peeps I know and we're all just chillin on the cafeteria seats and the music is playing and a few of us just start waving our arms vigorously like we're conducting, just to be silly I guess.

So this is the point where I woke up. It was a random little dream, but the thing is when I woke up I could still remember the music and I KNEW that I knew that song from somewhere. I figured it must have been from some movie I'd seen so I was racking my brain. I didn't want to start working or anything until I could remember so I wouldn't forget what it sounded like. It took me about 5 minutes but when the thought crossed my mind I KNEW what it was. You can listen/watch here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5tGA6bpscj8 The part that was in my dream starts @ 6:07. Good movie intro music, right? Man, my brain is good!

Um, ok. So I've decided to make a blog of my awesome dreams because, lets face it, they are quite legendary. However, I realized that the really great dreams don't come along that often so I may not keep up with this blog if I only use it to document the dreamage so I guess I'll just pepper in the stories of my unconscious little adventures along with the rest of whatever I happen to blog about. Good plan? I guess we'll see...